How to forget?

I wishes someone tell me what REAL LOVE is all about.

How would you feel when you see someone you love cheating on you, again and again? What will you do?
Why I have to see someone like him weeks after weeks and he still have no shame of what he does? I really don't want to see him anymore but he didn't give me a choice. Why after all this, he can't give me some time and space to heal the lost of my marriage? I decided to get a divorce but is that mean he will be out of my life. No, he will always be their fathers. I will always see him when he comes to visit the kids.

I just want to start my life over. They got what they wanted and be happy. How about me?
Does anyone care about how I feel? I want to live my life. I want to forget the bad memories, the betrayal.

Please have mercy and give me a chance.
I might not have a lot of time now, I want to be strong for my kids.

I need to be healthy, this is all I want.